I had started this post a few days ago before the title "keeping it together" meant a whole different thing.
Every year I create an After School Schedule to keep me going in the right direction when the kids start up with their extracurriculars. This year it will really come in handy. My brain is a little preoccupied right now, and I think on overload.
If you've seen my blog within the last week you've seen the Attack of the Oompa Loompa's. Duane my dear sweet husband has been battling jaundice. We've been through a slew of tests, and nothing seemed to be pointing in the direction of why. Today we meet with his oncologist to discuss what I thought would be the results of nothing. Unfortunately it was something. The cancer is back and in new areas of his body. At least 4 different tumors in 4 new spots; a small one in his liver, lymph nodes right outside the liver, his sternum, and lymph nodes in his chest.
The tricky part is he still is jaundice and can't have certain chemo drugs until his liver starts functioning better, and his liver can't function better until certain positioned tumors shrink.
Keeping it together now means trying not to ball too much in front of the kids, trying not to think of the worst case scenarios, trying to believe that my Father in heaven knows and loves me and will always be by my side.