To Be Or Not To Be.....Thankful That Is

Lately my youngest children have become the squishy tushy squad or other words a bunch of bum squeezing little preverts! At first is was funny, well actually really funny. They, and I guess I should clarify, they does include 5 children at one point or another that has squished a tush (my bookend children are completely Innocent), they are completely running ramped now. An intervention is now underway. But my point was that I told myself this was the one time in there life that they could pinch Mrs. Fell's bum and get away with it. They were grieving, acting strange, just not themselves. And yes, I have to say I still know that this is the main reason for the prevert flare-up.

So I was thinking about Thanksgiving. To be or not to be the old widow Summers, bitter to the world for the lot she had been given. Grouchy, crotchety, walking around with a cane whacking little children upside the head with it(hmmm, I do like that idea!). This was my one year that I could get away with having the widow Summers take over and no one would really even bat an eye lash, except my children who would be suffering from blunt force trauma. I could do it. I should do it. Well, no actually I couldn't, I won't, and the immortal words of Hannah "I shan't!" I love my family way to darn stinkin' much to do that to them.

I am so Thankful, yes, I am so Thankful for the so many little someones I have in my life. Each one of my babies have been a blessing from my Father in Heaven. They save me every single day, and I relish those moments that they need a little saving themselves.

I am so Thankful for the 15 years of marriage that Duane and I had, the love that we shared, the best friend that he was.

I am so Thankful for my Savior Jesus Christ and the comfort and peace he has granted me these first few weeks of my new life without Duane.

I am so Thankful for my family for the support they have given me and the children, even though they are mourning just as much, they have been selfless, thank you!

I am so Thankful to all my friends and church family for tirelessly coming to our aid whenever we need help.

Happy Thanksgiving, I love you all!

Thanks Babe!

I was leafing through Duane's scripture case this afternoon, looking, hoping, wanting to find anything written in his hand, touched by him, you get the picture, pretty sappy huh. Anyway I came across his little black book. Funny isn't it, Duane had a little black book! Except of course his was not loaded with other women's numbers, or even anything less than upstanding, it was filled to the brim with quotes, thoughts, scripture versus, anything that would strike him at the time he was listening at church or during general conference. Honestly, I always poked fun of my dear sweet husband, going to hell moment, I thought he was such a goody-goody sometimes. Wow! How grateful I am to have such a treasure trove of his spiritual nuggets.

One of the quotes Duane jotted down was from Thomas S. Monson, and it struck me as a sweet message he saved just for me now. "God gave us memories that we might have June roses in the December of our lives." Thanks Babe! Thank you for the sweet smelling bouquet of roses you have left for me and the children. We will cherish them always.

'Til we meet again

He could flash a smile at me and my heart would melt into a puddle. Monday, November 10, 2008 my love and eternal companion returned to our Father in Heaven. I will miss his gentle touch, the kind sound of his voice when he would call me "beautiful", the infectious laughter when you would even attempt to tickle him. He wore a tutu for his girls, camped in the backyard with his boys, did dishes for his love.

The days before his passing, Duane would shake the hand of every friend and loved one that would visit. The words he would utter, " 'til we meet again". Amazing how 4 simple words can bring such comfort to my soul. 'Til we meet again my love, 'til we meet again.

My Joy Through Our Sorrow

"I have a family here on earth. They are so good to me. I want to share my life with them through all eternity.
Families can be together forever

Through Heavenly Fathers plan.

I always want to be with my own family,

And the Lord has shown me how I can. The Lord, has shown me how I can."

Children's Songbook, pg 188

Share the love

I feel so loved, thanks Stacey! So in return for receiving this, my first blogging recognition, I must share with you 6 things I love and then share the love with 6 blogs I love. Here goes.

6 things I love:

1. My family
2. Peanut butter and chocolate ice cream
3. Harry Potter
4. The smell of fresh cut grass
5. Listening to the owl outside my window at night
6. Pumpkin anything

6 Blogs I love:

1. Lindsay and Lisa(I know it's two, they are the friends who got me into blogging)
2. Mamarazzi at Dandelion Wishes
3. Katrina at Baking and Boys
4. Crystal at Everyday Food Storage
5. Sally at Sparkly Squares

Have a great day friends, voting, enjoying the fact that election season it almost over, spreading the love.